just going to let this out . i hate what is happening . what exactly are we doing may i ask . i really wish you would take the initiative to lay this out in the open so that we would both be on common ground . i dont want to keep assuming / disregarding things .

but more importantly , if you have any intention of making this actually work , then please tell me in advance . if i refuse to play the same game as i had before , that means the way we approach this must also be different . i cannot promise to willingly choose someone and choose them forever unless this is all in Gods will . meaning there is no guarantee until there is God , and i would hate to mislead you .