shipwreck

I built a fortress
With a hundred thousand faces
I'll keep it safe
With a hundred thousand more
But these masks are wearing thin
As You draw me in

I spent my time
On the empty and the fleeting
I spent my life
On much less than I'd dreamed
But I'm reaching out to you
To make me new

'Cause I am just a beggar here at Your door
I am just a shipwreck here on Your shore
I come empty handed 
Ready to see
Your life in me changing who I've been
To who I need to be

You tell me my story
As You sift between the pages
I feel redemption
In the space between each turn

Could You take me in Your arms
And tell it just once more



/ what an eye opening experience today. fellowshipping with the teams were great, but playing with thunder was the first hit home (haha pun intended). seeing how much they still loved matt and how they were continuing with life & staying strong for him was a good reminder that through God, anything can be done - that He really heals all emotional wounds and that we should always have complete faith in Him. Seeing his dad was really encouraging as well, the fact that he took so much time out to help A.Ma was so touching .. even though his own son just passed away less than a month ago, here he is being selfless and helping a stranger in need. 
the second hit home was watching a friend suffer so much - although not life threatening in any way, i know it must have hurt a lot. i know he has a high pain threshold , so for him to cry in pain and shake like that really must have been so painful. it just reminded me of the bigger picture. that yeah, whats happening in my family, with my friends & other special relationships, jobs, volunteer may seem like a big deal - but in the end, everybody dies and that what really matters is salvation. and that a lot of the times, even though i think im already looking at a bigger picture (ie marriage instead of just a relationship), often times it isnt big enough. Gods perspective will always be wider, and I have to learn to see what He sees.