just one of those days when i want to crawl back in my shell , raise up the walls and burn some bridges . perhaps im tired, perhaps its pms - who knows. but whatever this is , its discouraging , and all this amounts to a continuous spiral of negativity of inadequacy, discouragement, and some sort of mental exhaustion. i dont like it , i dont like being not rational enough to reason with myself & talk myself out of slumps . i also dont like letting others in to deal with things like this because it really is unfair to them . so im sorry , this time ill be resisting from letting you in like i normally do .