why do i feel so drained even when midterms is done? still tired , lethargic , perhaps ultimately alone . i think subconsciously im pushing everyone away - and i think i will continue doing so until i figure out what is up with me .

i only have one day to get myself back on track. no more sleeping at 6ams , but instead at 12-1 . waking up at 7, going to all my classes, diligently taking notes, hitting the gym, morning devos, eating more than 800 calories a day .
somewhat of a steep road to recovery cause midterms has messed with me so much . i shall begin with cleaning my room, doing laundry, and gyming tomorrow :)
i am excited for church tomorrow, i do love harvest a lot - PTL for helping me find such an amazing church !