i realize im always blogging about how awesome my friends are , but really they are so awesome . so glad t.lai got to meet the rest of the boys , i hope he understands now why im always with them and why i love them so much :3 also met renee who is adorbs and definitely outgoing , making it easy to laugh and talk and accomodate her :)

at the afterparty , i noticed things that made me really upset . i tried to conceal it and pretend i was just super tired but i dont think i did a great job of that. it frustrates me because i know my heart is no longer with that person anymore, yet when things like that happen it still bothers me. all i could do was pray in the midst of the loud blaring music that God would mend my wounds. now that everything has come & gone, i suppose i dont care much anymore - but it still bothers me that it bothered me . haha if that makes much sense at all .

this coming week will be full of hard work and efficiency ! yes it will : ) lenting twitter and icefilms was a good idea . and b.leung and k.pu gave me the idea of substituting icefilms with sermons . super like !

and now i get to suffer from withdrawal from that fun filled weekend .

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Now heres the sun come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
Youre the one thing that Im missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you were naturally
The one to make it so easy when you showed me the truth
Yeah, yeah Id rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too