knowing that God is sufficient in all circumstances is harder than it seems. at one point i thought i had it down, but of course i only thought so because i was happy and everything was fine.

at times like this, i really wish i was back in the comforts of my home. i wish my family was there with me - just their presence around me. i wish i was back with my SCAC friends - the people whom i really truly love and grew up with. i wish some special people were here with me or beside me or at least still awake to talk to me. but of course, nothing is as i wish it was, and thus i am so emotionally volatile. i suppose its fair to argue that its because i was feeling all pent up and a little blue inside that i wanted all these things, but it doesnt matter. the truth is i am not happy. and so this brings me back to my first point, knowing and feeling and living out the sufficiency in God's grace and love. so difficult, but im working on it.