on the way back to Toronto to hang with friends for a day and head home.

God has been speaking to me in various ways about various things lately. For one, it is to be completely and utterly humble. i caught myself boasting about my university yesterday - something along the lines of 'what , i was accepted into your program and i rejected it - hurray uwo'. but no gretch , you didnt get accepted into your program - without God's grace you would not have gotten in . even things that pertain to nonbelievers whom have hurt me - 'they dont know any better cause they dont have God' - it is true , they really dont know any better but that shouldnt be my initial thought , i should be entirely forgiving -really lowering myself and abolish whatever pride i have in things that are not even mine .

Another little lesson that ive been striving for is to always have God on my mind. the amount of bible reading i do every day or prayer is not enough. its true that what you think about the most is what is really in your heart, and for me all i think about is what to do when i go home , what work i have to finish , what is due when and how shall i proceed to tackle it. Every now and then i remember to talk to God, tell Him little tidbits of my day or pray for somebody who looks like theyre hurting - but really it isnt enough . is it because i do not face adversity? i remember last semester i really prayed that God would break every inch of me down so that i could find Him and rely on only Him. but when i really broke down, i did not bother to find Him, rather I rejected Him.

I suppose all this rambling is going nowhere. In general there is a sense of inadequacy, a desire to always do better, to always place God first - especially in my thoughts as i embrace the day.

wow this blog post did not make much sense at all ...
trains make me sleepy