so i pray to God to give me discernment and wisdom and patience and humility, but in this situation is that really what i want? i know im being way too prideful here - not even letting my guard down for a second, because to me - really this is outrageous . this is your problem not mine , you are the one who is dying to know - so shouldnt you ask me , and why be so judgmental over something that isnt even true . 
i feel like it isnt right that you hurt someone close to me , and now the responsibility is on me to make amends for your problems . 


that is why i am unwilling to budge.