just another reminder from one of those loopies that God puts you through - gretch , be sustained in God and God only , find joy in Jesus and Jesus only , and be joyful in all circumstances - including this one ! always a constant reminder that all i have is by His grace . for my parents who pay for my education, for my Father who made all of this happen , i really have to push myself even though i feel a little worn out .

today has also been great in the sense that i finally emailed my family just for kicks . i was never super accountable with my family / never really that close & i have always kept a lot of secrets to myself (although im sure they probably saw through it all). i figured if i can take the imitative to be accountable with my friends , i definitely can with my family . although in the past the relationship with my family was scarred , its never too late to start over and be the proper daughter that im supposed to be . this is definitely the least i could do for them <3 , and also to 'mentor' my baby sister . baha she is 13 .. but she will forever be a baby in my eyes . haha , just another tiny step , but really , im very excited .

meanwhile , time to scout my kitchen for some caffeine .

ha - back . equipped with a double green tea bagged cup of tea , cup of frozen berries and a granola bar . ON TO TACKLE THIS ASSIGNMENT AGAIN .

also as i was looking for food , it occured to me that im getting way ahead of myself. silly me , i thought i was ready but who am i kidding . i am definitely not ready and i am definitely willing to wait & spend more time with Jesus and Jesus alone ^^ . this time is so precious - i need to establish my own foundation , correct my wrongs , build myself up ... then we can talk 

ahh , 5:15 AM .. its hard to maintain the same amount of joy .. but i suppose joy does not equate to energy LOL physically .. i am definitely wearing myself down here . 6am sleep was definitely quite accurate . wake at 9 if i can : ( why am i saying definitely so much . i am so sure of everything luls . 

sidenote - as im completing this project , just SO HAPPENS that all the prices i need for various food items are conveniently on the metro flyer . God , really you leave me speechless sometimes .

"in view of God's mercy i offer my all"